July 13. Wednedsay.

Today...what can I say about today?

I finally took a walk this morning. First one in ages. Well, first morning walk anyway. Dearest and I stopped walking when it got cold and just never really picked it up again. It felt good. I found my limit, didn't push myself past it to be honest. But it felt really good to finally get some concentrated exercise, instead of relying on sex and walking up the stairs to burn calories.

The past two days of sticking to my diet plan have paid off. It's not very difficult when I'm not in the house. Today, I flubbed. But that's okay, I'll do better tomorrow. Plus I walked today. That's gotta count for something. Anyway, I'm down to 236 this morning from 240 so I've gotta be doing something right. I don't usually fluctuate that much just in normal day-to-day stuff.

I stayed home today, didn't go to the office with Dearest like I normally do. It was a combination of things: There's no money left on my Starbucks card (big, fat, tears of despair), I had forgotten to wash my jeans, and we were expecting company tonight and I wanted to straighten up. Even when you don't think you're home long enough to make a mess, not being home at all for a few days adds up fast. Especially if you were a little bit lazy on the days you were home.

I must admit, I didn't get much done that can be visibly recognized. Some laundry, some dishes, sure. Scrubbed the shower - which was getting a little blech - and used the mop that's basically a sponge on a stick to try to get the mold off the corners, tops of the walls, and ceiling in the bathroom.

I'd like to take a moment to point out that I have nothing to do with the growth of this mold. Dearest's last wife (before me) and her terrible habits combined with the poor ventilation in the room and the steam from the shower on at least a daily basis did that. I just have to clean it up.

Anyway back to what I was talking about. I also straightened and vacuumed the living room. To be honest I would have liked to get more done but doing the healthy thing is taking a little bit out of me for starters. Being quite *un*fit, physical activity takes a lot out of me for now. So despite taking my medication like a good girl (someone give me a cookie?) I was a bit lethargic today.

ADHD meds, by the way. They help me focus and usually the focus gives me more energy to do stuff but not today. Which sort of brings me back to what I was talking about...again. I got a bit of researching done, a lot of mental preparation for the company we were expecting. Not just any company, a young lady who we are helping to start her own business. It's awesome stuff, and totally fun, and a component of what we do within our own business.

But she cancelled.

So now I'm sitting here feeling silly for putting so much effort into making sure that I knew what I needed to know and had all the resources available to me when and where I needed them and so on - instead of cleaning my house. But maybe she'll reschedule for tomorrow or another evening and then I'll already be prepared.

I'm planning on staying home tomorrow too, so hopefully I'll get stuff cleaned then.